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Sometimes something good does come out of unfortunate things though. As
I was liking cute songs and posts on this guy's Facebook, I came across an old friend (that makes me sound so old!), a girl I knew in elementary school. We were really good friends from sometime in elementary school until about tenth grade. She just happens to now be best
friends with the boy I'm talking about (life is so damn funny!) and I thought
for a little while they were dating but they're not, just good friends. They're both great people. Anyway, I had a nice/interesting conversation with this girl and it made me feel a little better. That is until she told me he has a thing for some other girl, but that's not her fault, at least she was nice about it. I wasn't shocked, kinda expected it, but it
still crushed me. She's a good friend so she wouldn't tell me who it is (I had to ask though, couldn't help it!) Apparently it's possible to
be jealous of a girl whose name I don't even know. I'll just have to pretend it doesn't kill me until this awful
feeling goes away, hopefully. I wish him well though, he's still a sweet guy.
I
thought maybe I should unfriend him on Facebook...but I couldn't....it would seem
mean and I cant do it...and truthfully I dont want to. And of course
lately he "liked" some of my posts, which I know is just him being nice
or agreeing with whatever I said...but it makes me think about him and kills me
all over again! Uggh!, I don't want to forget about him, but why is he
doing that if he knows I like him but he doesn't like me back...just to taunt
me or be nice? Ha! (He has to know, the amount of hints I threw at him is
ridiculous....and even if he somehow missed them all, that friend of mine/his
must have told him...I think?) Time to stop! It's not going to be easy, if I've had a
crush on him for the past 2 years and a few months....how am i just supposed to just turn it off? I have a tendency to get over things very slowly (totally liked the same boy from kindergarten through 6th grade!
lol!). Some habits don't die. I guess it'd be easier of I totally ignored him and tried to stop thinking about him. On the other hand, I don't really want to for
obvious reasons.... Oh well, I'll just keep pretending to be over it until I am. Ya, sure, that'll work, maybe?
Music helps a little :)
"Someone Like You" by Adele
This is one of the most beautiful/sad songs ever!
"That's What You Get" by Paramore
"I still try holding on to silly things, I never learn."
"That's what you get when you let your heart win! I drowned out all my sense with the sound of it's beating."
"Beautiful" by Eminem (explicit)
This doesn't have much to do with anything, I just love Eminem, always makes me feel better! :)
"Dear Agony" by Breaking Benjamin
"If I Can't Have You" by Kelly Clarkson
Somewhat more upbeat song than the others, lol!
"Dreaming with a Broken Heart" by John Mayer
Just because John Mayer's adorable and I love his dreamy voice :)
"The Breakdown" by Alexz Johnson
"Fu** You/Gonna Get Over You" Sara Bareilles (explicit)
"Fairytale" by Sara Bareilles
Okay, I'm finally done talking about this now. Thanks for reading/following! Comment below if you'd like. :) Also, my laptop (with all my pictures,etc. on it) is still! being fixed, so I'll go back to posting outfits and stuff when I get it back, hopefully tomorrow. Love you guys!
♥ Xoxo, Gabriella
P.S. The "Ciao" in the title is meant to mean "goodbye" not hello.